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The Losing Side, Ch. 64 - How to Win a Losing Battle

Sunday, May 11, 2008

It's a tricky tightrope between trauma, rage, and finding yourself....but Mal is learning to walk it.

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It was a pretty morning; crisp and clear with the subtle flash of melting snow dripping from the chain links of the fence. Tiny specks of fluffy cloud were sprinkled randomly about in the sky, and Mal drew in a deep breath of fresh air that felt oddly free. He pretended to ignore the approach of two guards, but they called his name and he walked to the gate, resenting the interruption of a perfectly nice moment.

The resentment deepened as he was ordered politely out of the yard and stood up against the fence to be searched. As usual, there wasn’t a word of explanation, and he wondered just who had made the huang tang decision that the ‘verse would collapse about itself if one deigned to tell a prisoner where he was being taken, or why.

There was nothing unkind in Lang's manner, nothing different about the demeaning routine he'd endured so many countless times that it almost seemed like an ordinary way for a fellow to say hello. How are you today, Sergeant Reynolds? Let me lock your hands behind your back and make sure you're not hiding a gun in your pi gu. Oh, yes, it is a lovely morning, isn't it?

Nothing remained of the fear Khiloh had so patiently eased him past when Lang locked the first cuff firmly around his right wrist. Just anger, raw rage that made blood pound in his ears while the world shrank to this one moment. Mal jerked away furiously and spun, throwing Lang off balance and facing him, handcuffs dangling.

Lang grabbed his arm, startled, and Mal punched him. The rage fueling him wanted to beat the kid’s face in, to slam him against the fence and show him, this is what it feels like to be hurt. To be defenseless. To have your world destroyed. But something stronger, some innate protective instinct, stayed the force of his blow. His fist caught Lang’s cheekbone, landing just hard enough to make him let go with a startled yelp.

"You honestly think I'm this dangerous?" he asked. "Figure I should beat ya’ to a pulp just so's there's an actual reason to treat m

Comments
Sunday, 11 May 2008 08:07
Brilliant yet full of so much melancholy. Just one question. Are you going to keep this going for ten long years? I can fully understand Mal striking out and am just glad that his guards understand the why of it I just don't know why you don't give the poor guy at least some hope of a reprieve, a light at the end of a very long tunnel. Please tell me you have some plan besides just keeping Mal locked up. Ali D
You can't take the sky from me
Sunday, 11 May 2008 08:30
No, he's not going to be there for ten years. He's actually getting out very, very soon...it's just that *he* doesn't know it yet ;)
Sunday, 11 May 2008 08:37
Thanks jetflair, I am so relieved I could hug you! Shiny, Ali D :~)
You can't take the sky from me
Sunday, 11 May 2008 11:22
Wonderful chapter! It has many layers of meaning to anyone who ever felt trapped in an impossble situation that never seemed to end. You described Mal's emotional state perfectly and compassionately, and you've shed light into a very gray area of PTSD. Hopefully you've taught other people some coping skills with this - either as a victim or as a supporter. Great job - looking forward to more.
Sunday, 11 May 2008 11:53
Amazingly written chapter. And I can so feel for Mal. What's so good, though, is that for once the Alliance are shown to be men, good and bad. It makes such a change. And I am also ecstatic that Mal's incarceration is soon to be over ... the man needs to be free.
Sunday, 11 May 2008 13:39
Fantastic writing s usual. Very insightful into PTSD and depression. Are you sure you aren't a psychologist?
Monday, 12 May 2008 10:47
great chapter - i just wish this could all get filmed!:)
i've said it before - i'll say it again, The Losing Side is one of the greatest things to happen to fan fic:)
Thursday, 15 May 2008 00:28
I have to say, that this is one of the most complete, deeply moving, fufilling pieces of fiction I've read.
Thanks Jetflair, you've made a rotten morning seem bright again.
Saturday, 17 May 2008 01:06
Excellent work. Your Mal is becoming more and more the Mal we met at the beginning of Firefly. Kudos for a subtle, thoroughly engrossing character study!
Saturday, 28 June 2008 00:57
I'm far behind on reviewing this wonderful tale of yours, but then again maybe a very late review will inspire you to give us a new chapter!

This was a strange and fascinating twist you took with Mal and his reactions. I was surprised at what he did, and not surprised at the same time. It fit and it worked.

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