Disclaimer: Although Joss Whedon and I share many things in common (such as our passion for Firefly) the ownership of Firefly/Serenity is not one of them. Firefly belongs to Joss and Joss alone.

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Simon is everything to her. He’s the reason she wakes up in the morning, the reason she smiles so brightly. He’s the dreams she has; he’s the air she breathes, the light by which she works. Simon is what fills all of the voids in her life. Simon means more to her than anything in the ‘verse one could name. Simon is worth more to her than her own life. So what exactly defines Simon to her?

A thousand words come to mind when she thinks of Simon, and all of them mean more than what the dictionary says they do. They mean different things. There are synonyms, antonyms. There are verbs, there are adjectives, there are pasts and presents, subjunctives, adjectives, adverbs, perfects and imperfects. All of the words that come to mind make up Kaylee’s own, personal definition of Simon Tam.

Lover .

It’s the first thing that comes to mind when she thinks of him. He’s her heart and soul. He’s her joie de vivre. Simon is the one who holds her heart in his hands, he takes her apart, he makes her feel, see. He holds her in his arms and makes love to her, he fills her, touches every part of her. She cries tears of laughter, joy, love, bliss, mirth and a thousand other things for him. She moves with him, breathes with him, falls with him.

She remembers when it first started, when she first began to think of them as being lovers. Sure, she’d had lovers before him, but that was so superficial. With Simon, when she thinks of the word lover, she thinks of strings. Emotional strings. The strings that tie her to him on a spiritual level, the strings that connect them more deeply than the physical act of loving ever could. Those strings that spell out lover every time she thinks of him.

Kaylee recalls those mornings where