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Honest Run: Delusions

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Things get a little more resolved. Simon's mind begins its downward spiral.

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Previous chapters include:

Honest Run: Deal

Honest Run: Din

Honest Run: Detail

Honest Run: Detachment

Honest Run: Diagnosis

Honest Run: Dance

Honest Run: Dignity

Honest Run


Simon groaned.

The night had passed with more arguing, but to a lesser extent. As angry as Mal was, he had a streak of rationality in him. There was no point in berating Simon further once he had confessed his ‘crime.’

While morning had finally come opening his eyes had been a trial. It had been a fitful night of dark dreams and dull aches. As for his sight, Simon found that the focus was off and there was an intense yellowing in it. A dozen unnecessarily long names of symptoms rattled off in his head.

So. This is what it feels like to die.

It was a defeatist thought that wouldn’t be turned aside. He felt hallow. Numb. As if a sudden cold had whisked away all the feeling in his body and replaced it with a lukewarm emptiness that ached unbelievably. But for all the emptiness, he seemed to recognize the pain, though it was like none he remembered.

It was just…

There.

His dreams were of the same stock. Blandly terrifying. No sharp point of agony to make it a nightmare, only a presence to make it dark and foreboding. In some way it was reminiscent of River. The undeniable shadow that seemed to pass through her features at will before her confusion would rush in.

Simo

Comments
Thursday, 30 June 2005 06:40
Trying to frame Simon going crazy should be interesting. Now after reading several of Ali D's fics and quite a few others, I've seen Mal go through just about everything.

Mal's tough.

I think Simon's tough too, and alot of this series is based around that ideal. To a degree, I think Mal knows it more than Simon does himself.

Enjoy and keep flyin'
Thursday, 30 June 2005 06:52
Oh this one was funny. Jayne delusion was craking me up, look foward to the next part.
ANONYMOUS
Thursday, 30 June 2005 09:10
Excelent, getting better and better, is simon starting to show a bit of cycic power, or has he just got real insightfull now he's a bit crazy (after all he is directly related to a mind reading genius)

Delusional Jayne is funny as hell, and actuall seems smarter than real Jayne to boot..
Thursday, 30 June 2005 09:21
Those delusions of Simon's would drive me crazy too just relieved to see an almost normal conversation between him and Mal at the end of it. I have always thought Simon was strong but in an understated, keeping his powder dry kind of way, whereas Mal's strength is almost tangible as if to hide the fragility inside. Let go and he just might fall apart. At the end of the day it may be Simon holding Mal together more than the other way round. And trust the Jayne delusion to be the one that lasts the longest! Great myth, Ali D :~)
You can't take the sky from me
Thursday, 21 July 2005 23:13
Oh my...somehow missed the update when you did this. Great job. Love seeing Simon tormented---you even had the tormentors completely in character. I also liked his reminesce about his parents and river. great story building.
ANONYMOUS
Friday, 19 August 2005 18:32
I'm adoring this story, but I'm always wary when there are indications that River's medication hurts more than it helps. I think River's own words from the episode indicate that the medication helps. Also I despise the idea of Simon doing something medically wrong or of him hindering rather than helping River.

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