Something To Think On: Chapter 8
Thursday, July 30, 2009
M/I. Post-BDM. On love and wanting to give.
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Something To Think On
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Chapter Eight
The thing of it was, the boy was right. He was no better than Simon’s schoolyard friends, scared of life and love and hiding himself behind the mysteries of the universe. And maybe he was right about that second thing, too. Maybe he believed she wouldn’t love him back because he didn’t believe in her.
Love him back. When had that happened? When had he started to think love had something to do with it? It wasn’t straight away, that much was certain. At the start, she’d just been something to think on. A pretty something. A mysterious something. A damned frustrating something.
Soon enough, the pretty and the mysterious and the frustrating’d become too much to bear, and she’d become something he wanted, wanted fierce, from a place so deep down inside it near-about rent him whenever he felt it. Wanted her body but more than anything wanted her soul.
But somewhere along the line – couldn’t quite put his finger on the moment – that’d changed. That first wanting, he figured: it had been a wanting to take. Body or soul, didn’t matter. He wanted something that was hers to give, and he wanted it freely given (no wiles or coin in sight). And that was how he knew it’d changed. One day, out of nowhere, he had a notion that what he wanted was to give.
The wanting to take – it was as powerful as he’d ever experienced; felt it in his skin and his gut and his chest. The intensity of it was new, but the fact of it wasn’t much. But the wanting to give – that there was something he’d never experienced. He wanted to give of himself to her. Not just to her, but for her – wanted to tend to her, to reach in and fix whatever that little thing was inside her that’d gone wrong. And for him, too
The explanation of Saffron, and then the wanting to melt down... Ah. Why didn't I reread this sooner? I was busy, but there's too much pretty here for me to have kept away.
The nice little moments you make up in between the series flesh them out so well. So I see a hint of Kaylee jealousy, or if not jealousy, selfishness? probably more concern for simon, but going through this again, it's fun trying to see just what might all be here.
"You can't take the sky from me!"
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