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The Bravest Thing Part 4 by Nailani Williams

Disclaimer: No Copyright Infringement intended so Joss put down the Sword of Truth!

Summary: Taking place after the BDM. Jayne and Zoe, pairing. Jayne’s secret personal grief from his past ends up pushing him closer to Zoe than he could ever imagine.

Rating: NC-17

A/N: Thank you all who have read and responded to my fic, it warms my heart that you like it! Keep feeding the feedback monster she‘s greedy! LOL! Please, forgive any mistakes I have no Beta.

:)Lani

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Jayne:

I would have admit having Zoe to confide in was better than dealing with my pain alone. She reminded me of a hotter, more female version of Book. When I need her she was there quick to give me advice.

We were now only a day out from Bernadette. I was still having the dreams, I knew they’d pass. They always did, but this year was a little harder than the other’s. I couldn’t understand why. Maybe it was because of Miranda. Seeing those people lay down and die, it made me wonder if they suffered. Like Ruby, like Vera…I still wondered if Ruby knew I was coming for her. If she knew before she died that I was trying to save her.

I asked Zoe this after everyone retired for the evening, we were sitting in the dining area. I was sitting at the head of the table, she was sitting to my right, she took my hand.

“Of course she did, Jayne, from the captures I guessed that you were her biggest hero,” she said and I shook my head.

“I failed her…and you know what I thought after…I should have never settled down. I should have never taken a wife, let alone have any children! What the hell was I thinking Zoe?!” I said and she squeezed my hand.

“I’m thinking…that you loved this women with all of your heart, enough that you were willing to give up your lifestyle for her,” I just snorted at that.

“I gave it up enough to get her and our children dead!” I said, pulling away form her hand. Zoe backed off a bit and sat back in her chair.

“When I lost Wash, I thought, why did I f