To be or Not to Be THAT is the Question...
POSTED BY: RiveR6213
UPDATED: Sunday, April 9, 2006 14:26
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Quote:You're guilty of caring, that's all. I feel bad too. But I think we did what we could, in this limited way.
Originally posted by reaverman:
Maybe I need someone to tell me I'm right to feel guilty or not.
Until we find out otherwise, she might be okay...
Chrisisall
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Quote:
Originally posted by reaverman:
Its been a few days now, and I cant shake the thought that I could have done more, said more to help her. Maybe its just arrogance on my part that I could have said or done anything to change her mind, I'll never know, and that's what eats at me. Maybe I'm wrong and she didn't do it. Its a possibility, but it's not one that I can bring myself to believe. I'm not sure why I'm writing this. Maybe I need someone to tell me I'm right to feel guilty or not. Or, maybe I just wanted to get this off my chest. Maybe that's somethimg else that I'll never really know. And maybe I should stop bothering you folks with my problems. Sorry...
You're welcome on my boat. God ain't.
I wish I could have said or done more too, but I don't think it's realistic to imagine I could have. I'd like to think that maybe she didn't do it. Her post before the last one really sounded like she had decided the other way. All I know is that I honestly tried. I never said a word to her I didn't mean. I was worried every time I posted here that I might not be saying the right things for her to hear, but I figured I'd never be sure exactly what the "right" approach was, so I just said what I honestly felt, the best way I could think to. If she's still out there, I don't begrudge her the uncertainty she's causing by not saying so now. I could understand her needing time away.I'd hope someday she could let us know. If not, I feel sad, but not guilty. I would have felt guilty if I hadn't tried, or if I had tried to manipulate her dishonestly and it backfired. I think you tried the best you could too, and that your efforts were sincere. I can understand it bothering you, it bothers me too, but I wouldn't put any guilt on you. We never tried to take her choices away, we just tried to show her that she had a choice, that it didn't have to end that way, and that she wouldn't have to face the future alone. Whether it worked or not, I think it was the right thing to do.
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Well, for all of those who are interested, I made it back. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing, but here I am.
River
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Good to see you back :)
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You can take my hope when you pry it from my cold, dead fingers.
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The fact that I am back is by complete luck. I guess "recoil" never factored into my plan.
River
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Quote:To quote from an Indy movie:
Originally posted by RiveR6213:
Well, for all of those who are interested, I made it back. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing, but here I am.
River
"Oh, my friend! I'm so glad you're not dead!"
Ya scared us.
Made it back from.....?
Relieved Chrisisall
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I made it back from the hospital Sunday.
River
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I'm assuming you're on a pain medication, am I right?
You aren't usually this short with replies.
Are you all right?
Did you come close?
If you don't want to expand on what you've already written, I'll certainly understand.
You haven't run out of future yet.
Chrisisall, thanking recoil
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I'm being short because I'm typing with one hand. I won't have the use of my whole, left hand and arm for awhile. It takes forever to type anything. You are correct, I am on some serious pain medication.
And yes, I did come close; I commited suicide, but as you can see, I was totally unsuccessful, and also I am in big trouble with the authorities. It seems that my little attempt caused a great stir in the neighborhood that I live in.
River
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Well, fortunatly or not, your journey just got more interesting. And now you have new obsticles to overcome.
This may be something that ultimatly makes you stronger. That depends, of course, on you.
*And seeing as you will now have the time to watch it, get the first season of Dark Angel.*
As a fellow close call (not quite as close, I just lost half my blood in a stupid broken glass 'accident'), I'm glad you get a second chance too.
What do you think, are you feeling up to the challenge just now?
Chris
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