To be or Not to Be THAT is the Question...
POSTED BY: RiveR6213
UPDATED: Sunday, April 9, 2006 14:26
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Trust me, I know a thing or two about suicide notes, and that was one. I think she's actually done it. Who knows, maybe she's happier now. Goodbye, River. You'll always be a friend in my book.
You're welcome on my boat. God ain't.
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*tears*
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*All I can do is wait, now I am left home all alone*
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Tell us if you're okay, if you didn't leave, and got help or something. Will ya?
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Originally posted by chrisisall:
Tell us if you're okay, if you didn't leave, and got help or something. Will ya?
Please do.
Anyone know how to reach River & make sure she is okay?
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"May have been the losing side. Still not convinced it was the wrong one."
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*hoping and waiting for River's return*
The Bible's a bit fuzzy on the subject of kneecaps.
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Its been a few days now, and I cant shake the thought that I could have done more, said more to help her. Maybe its just arrogance on my part that I could have said or done anything to change her mind, I'll never know, and that's what eats at me. Maybe I'm wrong and she didn't do it. Its a possibility, but it's not one that I can bring myself to believe. I'm not sure why I'm writing this. Maybe I need someone to tell me I'm right to feel guilty or not. Or, maybe I just wanted to get this off my chest. Maybe that's somethimg else that I'll never really know. And maybe I should stop bothering you folks with my problems. Sorry...
You're welcome on my boat. God ain't.
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Cliches ahead... But they're true, so here goes.
Reaverman:
Whatever has happened or hasn't happened is not your fault. I don't think you should feel guilty. (But I wouldn't start down the path of feeling guilty for feeling guilty.)
And, as you do know - Browncoats never mind helping each other out with problems.
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Quote:
Originally posted by minime:
Cliches ahead... But they're true, so here goes.
Reaverman:
Whatever has happened or hasn't happened is not your fault. I don't think you should feel guilty. (But I wouldn't start down the path of feeling guilty for feeling guilty.)
And, as you do know - Browncoats never mind helping each other out with problems.
Minime is right Reaverman. You have nothing to feel guilty for. River is an adult and her decisions are her own and no one elses responsibility. The fact that you truly care shows that your heart is in the right place & that you did all you could to help River.
I didn't really get to talk to her much, and I honestly must say I was put off a bit by some of her more heated comments about Christians, but I am holding out hope she is okay & will return.
Chin up Reaverman. Browncoats stick together & it is only right that we do all we can to look out for one another. We're family.
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"May have been the losing side. Still not convinced it was the wrong one."
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Hmmm....
not been on this board in a while and have to admit I too am wondering about this thread....
With a little experience behind me, somewhat of a blunt personality, and a smidgen of intellect...
Please take this in the helpful way it is offered...
Suicide is NOT a solution... period...
What would that REALLY solve?
just as the thread topic "to be or not to be"....
is really a tangent on "Why are we hear?"...
MANY "smarter" people than I have tried to answer that... and you know, to this day, NO ONE alive really knows for sure... they may propose that they do, but how do THEY or we know....
And although, if we knew the answer to that, I would think MANY of our actions and decision would be different, does it REALLY matter what the answer is ?
I am a simple man,
I hav da kollege teachin, I have da hard knocks learnin....
but I decided a long time ago that I will try to bring effect to the things I can affect :)
If all I have is a hand trowel, I'm not going to attempt to dig for oil, I will seek out the right tool for the job !
My reason for each day, is the joy and laughter each day brings.... Money or lack of it, does not matter, hard times or good times, impacts it only slightly, my belief system thus far has done welll for me....
I TRULY believe you are never faced with more than you can "handle" --- maybe it IS more than you ALONE can handle --- and believe me the loss of a 16 year old son to suicide IS more than ANY parent can handle....
and it NEVER gets better, it just gets "less worse".... it is a part of EVERY breath I take, the guilt, the blame, the "what could I have done".... it has taken a VERY long time and a lot of thought and discussion to realize that it was not of my doing.... no mater how much care and love you give, it is not you, so you don't decide that...
And the sense of aloneness that my son must have felt could not have been more incorrect....
I think now his spirit KNOWS that, but his life will never since it ended on July 5th, 2000.
After was a continual stream of people, kids, teachers, emails, calls, letters,etc... of concern and condolences....
not to me, but for him !
A GREAT, loving, kind, young man that mistook life as something else....
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Is it possible you are more "self-centered" than you think you are? (is that a nice way of saying arrogant :) ?
Is it possible that you think of yourself on a higher level than "the rest of us"....
Who knows why we are here, but do know this...
EVERYONE effects someone, every moment... maybe it is yourself, maybe it is others, maybe if is a memory....
So life is an adventure, knowing that EVERY little decision, no matter how mundane, affects the path you take....
just a .0005 degree turn to the left early enough in your trip will redirect you LIGHT years to the left of the potential previous target after a while....
good luck, and understand that there are more GOOD people out there than not...
it's just that the "bad guys" are usually louder and the news media always leads with what bleeds :)
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