I Need the Ugly Truth-Please Help Me

POSTED BY: RiveR6213
UPDATED: Wednesday, March 15, 2006 01:03
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KPO

Monday, March 6, 2006 12:53 PM

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I am a very successful woman. I'm good at science and any left-brained activity, but when it comes to social, conversations, and feelings, I always fail to be able to interpret the situation. When I think I’m being humorous other find it so not humorous. When I am being vague other take what I say and interpret it in a different way other than what I meant. When I’m happy, people act towards me like I’m sad. When I’m sad, people treat me as though I’m angry…go figure.

Alright, so let me try and gauge whether there is a correlation between the conventional meaning of the words you say and the attitude/emotion that you are really trying to express - this way I can maybe speak to you in your own language in the future

Your last post was angry, right?

THEPISTONENGINE

Monday, March 6, 2006 1:35 PM

That's not very cheerful, is it? By the way, what were you in the news about.

You seriously need to get a grip on yourself. If you're somehow more socially inept than me, you'd be, well, special. I'm 19 years old and still not even close to losing my virginity.

Hey, everyone can't be the most humorous type. I've given up and tried the tactic of just telling absolute groaners. But the point is, DEAL with it. You don't need professional help, you don't have a syndrome. You just need to accept your limitations, improve on what you can, and deal. Hell, if all of us hear dwelt on our faults, we'd all have to shoot ourselves.

If you have trouble relating to people, maybe you haven't found the right people to relate with? Or maybe you need to stop trying. Seriously, it works. Just relax, be yourself. Everyone says stupid things.

I'm babbling. But you get my point. And I hate you too :-D

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Originally posted by RiveR6213:
I always thought success would bring me happiness. I find that now I've arrived I hate everything and everyone so screw all of you.

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Carry the Nuttin'

UNREGISTEREDCOMPANION

Monday, March 6, 2006 1:36 PM

You may also want to look up bipolar disorder while you are at it. Lets rule that one out too.

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"Funny and sexy. You have no idea. And you never will."

GIXXER

Monday, March 6, 2006 2:29 PM

The truth needn't be ugly.

Your average Browncoat is a happy little bunny, supportive, sensible and generally a Good Person to have around. Might even, in exceptional circumstances, climb up onto the pyre with you, but obviously the First Plan would be to cut you the hell down from it. Did I mention pragmatic too?

However this, and maybe The Montana .50 cal Varmint Shooters Forum, are probably the last places you want to look for such important advice.

Find someone with a couch. Depending on the situation, have a hug, or a proper analytical discussion. Emphasis on the "or"...

G

(No offence meant to the hunters, naturally. I live in England, but I know those Barretts have some serious range on them...)

ASARIAN

Monday, March 6, 2006 3:00 PM

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Originally posted by RiveR6213:

Fellow Browncoats,

Maybe it’s for is an Adults bid for reasonable attention and input, but no other, so please make an attempt to understand. I hope you do, and I hope you respond!

I need your help, and if you can’t, then I understand. I Am a difficult human.

As Citizen pointed out, you are all not my therapy group, but I need your help because I am having difficulties, trouble seeing how my presence, my opinions, and points of view have affected you and other people.

I am a very successful woman. I'm good at science and any left-brained activity, but when it comes to social, conversations, and feelings, I always fail to be able to interpret the situation. When I think I’m being humorous other find it so not humorous. When I am being vague other take what I say and interpret it in a different way other than what I meant. When I’m happy, people act towards me like I’m sad. When I’m sad, people treat me as though I’m angry…go figure.

This forum is my only outlet for the ideas of freedom of expression if you can understand that, and YES, I know it’s a Firefly forum, but I am River in more ways than you want to know, so I think it fits here. Have I offended anyone here, or on this board in any primary, core way? Are my crimes so major, that it means I have to be ignored? And am I that bad? Do my escapades mean that I have no opinion worth looking at?

For all the people who have wondered about this sort of thing. You can have all the money on earth you could ever want. You can have all the status on earth that you will every need, but in the end, when the smoke clears, and the applause has ended, all you really have wanted (as I have) is the understanding of your fellow human being.

In this day and period, this can only come from a browncoat.

Dear River,

I'm not sure what to say, precisely. I can see why you ask, though. But I can honestly say you've never said or done anything that I felt even remotely offended about (not even when you replied to say River alone is not a good enough reason for humanity to be spared, lol). Switching to serious again.

Perhaps it's got something to do with the way I read, but I'm never bothered when you're frustrated, or appear a bit angry even. I really rather think it's simply a matter of your own humanity shining through, though, despite everything on the surface. If anything, I ere feel more connected to you than less. Like you say, at the end of the day, what we all just really need is the understanding of our fellow human beings. As Contact put it so nicely: "The only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other." Ain't nothing wrong with being needy in this regard -- whatever you may have heard elsewhere.

Style, expression, word choice, these can all be altered, if need be. And perhaps you feel the need to. I, from my end of the equation, can just say I'm always happy when you post. For one, because it simply means you're still on our crew. Now, I take it that's probably not a sufficient enough reason for you not to wonder about certain things. But all I can really say is, that in spite of some misgiving you may have about the way you express yourself, you still manage to communicate in such a way that I can genuinely say that I like you. And I'm confident enough to state, that if I feel this way, there be many more with me.

Stay strong!

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"Mei-mei, everything I have is right here." -- Simon Tam

HIXIE129

Monday, March 6, 2006 5:43 PM

River, wake up damn it, snap out it girl. You had a moment of weakness.

There are there lots of people who love you, I love you. I feel the same as Asarian, he really did a great job explaining how many of us feel. I'm happy when you post.

RIVER6213

Monday, March 6, 2006 10:30 PM

Okay, okay!!! So I'm a crazy person with a big mouth...sue me. I'm beginning to see that its sort of weird of me coming into this forum and kicking up all the fuss I do...its strange. If the people at my company could see me now they wouldnt know what to think. They never see this insane part of me, and I hope to god they never do. They are used to my Vulcan demeanor, which I practiced for years, and now I have it down to a fine art. The problem is, when I finally make it home, and I'm alone, and you get a couple of glasses of wine into me, I start to act weird. This seems to be getting worse and worse. Not the wine part, but the acting weird part.

I work almost 24/7...I live at my job because I believe that if you want it done right, do it yourself, but I think I'm starting to come unglued. I was sleep walking last week...3 times! I havent done that crap since I was a child! Yep, this is it, this is the big one...I'm going crazy. Its time to go get a shrink and find out what my problem is before I crack up and beat the crap out of someone, or jump off a bridge....I like the beat the crap out of someone idea better though.

I can see it now. I'll go to a shrink, and I'll tell him/her what my problem is, and they will know right there that they will be able to buy that new boat they always wanted, or put all their kids through college with what I'll be paying them for therapy. Maybe they might have me locked up? That wouldnt be a good thing. Those bozo's at my company would ruin my business, and I'll have to break out of the crazy house I'm at just to hunt them all down and impale their collective heads to a telephone pole.

Anyhow, thanks for the nice words you sympathetic souls, watching a crazy person go through their craziness. I honestly don't really remember starting this pathetic thread by the way.

I think I'll go over to the Storm-front, White Supremacy forum and start up an argument there. Those guys really have no sense of humor, and its fun to poke fun at them because they spend way too much time goose-stepping around, looking at photos of hitler, and hating everyone except for their own pathetic selves....I hate them.

Yup! Without a shadow of a doubt I'm crazy...even I can see it now. Why is it that crazy people are always the last to see their craziness?

River

Holy split personality Batman!

STDOUBT

Monday, March 6, 2006 10:50 PM

Damn... I wish we could meet up.
Are you an Aries?

Regarding what you said about weakness-
The most tender substance can wear down the mountains.
True strength is gentle.
May you melt.

CHINDI

Monday, March 6, 2006 10:58 PM

welllll in CASE this is a serious thread... I wanted to add that I have never been offended by any of your posts... and in case it is NOT a serious thread.. let me just add that screwing can be wacky fun! so "screw you" COULD be a compliment...

Chindi

CYBERSNARK

Monday, March 6, 2006 11:10 PM

*hugs river*

You're right.

I actually put a fair bit of thought into what I could say that wouldn't sound like a Hallmark card, but that's all I got: You are right.

Mercy, kindness, compassion --these are all crutches for the weak and flawed.

Thing is though, that's what humans are (and Vulcans, and just about any other sapient race that could conceivably exist --and I'm not even sure about animals). That's what the universe makes us. Tiamat knows, I have little patience for humanity either. The best thing I can say is that 95% of them wander through their lives with their eyes half-closed, not wanting to be anything other than dullard robots. Not even "people," but just bundles of pre-determined reactions, about as "alive" as NPCs in a video game. At worst. . .

And yeah, you're crazy. Ain't nothing wrong with that, it just means you're not like anyone else.

I'm not gonna throw platitudes at you: being different sucks. It's not fun, it's miserable, and painful, and scary, whether you admit to knowing fear or not. There may very well be no one else like you on the planet.

But you're here now. See how nobody here's attacking you. Flawed, imperfect, and crazy as you are, you're one of us.

Plain and simple fact is, as long as you exist, the world will have to deal with you. And the moment you leave it, the world will be different (maybe not worse, but maybe not better, but I hereby guarantee this: you will be missed). Don't go just yet, you might miss how it ends.

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We applied the cortical electrodes but were unable to get a neural reaction from either patient.

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