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Tracing Scars

Monday, April 10, 2006

Mal/ Inara. Set ten years post-Serenity. Mal realizes something about him and Inara’s relationship that he should have realized a long time ago. One shot.

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A small story I was inspired to write while working on chapter eleven of "Over the Hills...". It's a standalone, set ten years post-Serenity. I'm thinking of rewriting it later to play with the style of it a bit, but... well, if it happens at all, it won't be 'til "Over the Hills..." is done, and that will be a while. I hope you enjoy it! ~ Arcadia

Tracing Scars

Mal idly traced the scars on Inara’s body with his fingers as they lay in bed after their lovemaking. When he first met her, imagining a scar on her immaculate body had been impossible. Now, the scars were as part of Inara as anything else. The scar on her shoulder was from a bullet hole she’d received when she and River were on the run after a job-gone-wrong seven years ago. It had been her first real injury. Mal had been out of his mind when she came back, bleeding profusely. Inara had handled things far more gracefully. She told Simon to give her a band aid with a half-smile and a nod towards Zoe, who nodded back, before letting the doctor do his work.

The jagged, three inch scar two inches inward from her left hipbone had caused far more trauma. That had been received five years ago now on a job on Athens. They’d been stealing some coin from a museum there. Fanty and Mingo had given them the job. They hadn’t mentioned that they’d given it to another crew of no-good lowlifes, too. The job had been a bust. Inara had been stabbed. Mal had carried her through the town, which was covered in thick snow, back to Serenity. The depth of the cut, the angle of the knife… the first thing Inara did when she woke up was cry over the fact that she couldn’t have any children. Simon told her that wasn’t true. She still had one ovary left. It would just be harder. But as things turned out, Inara’s tears were justified. Though she and Mal had tried for a while, Inara had never gotten pregnant. She told Mal that it was all right. She was content to look after Kaylee’s critters. But Mal knew that she was lying to him. He never quite knew what to say.

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ANONYMOUS
Monday, 10 April 2006 23:39
"He lay down beside her, two emotions wrestling fiercely inside him: his gratitude and his grief."

Oh, so so pretty. I love the explanations of the scars. This is also a very real description of what their life together might have been like. It wouldn't be all fluffy. There'd still be pain and there'd still be danger.

Thanks!
~kaynara
Monday, 10 April 2006 23:58
I agree with Kaynara. This is a real shiny story. But...I thought that Mal would have had the scars...y'know, whatwith gettin' shot an' all
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 00:47
That is such a wonderful moment of intimacy. Scars, love, understanding, and rifts.
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 01:59
Wow. That was beautiful. A little bit haunting, a little bit bittersweet, but it rang very true. Intimate, but still frought with some insecurities and problems.

I loved this:

[“I made a choice, Mal.” Her fingers were entwined with his; she lightly squeezed his hand. Her voice was low, soft. “I chose you.”]

Beautiful. Thank you.
2X2
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 03:00
<i>He lay down beside her, two emotions wrestling fiercely inside him: his gratitude and his grief.</i>

Wow... what a powerful parting sentence!

I loved the idea of Mal tracing Inara's scars, remembering their origins... we've seen Inara do that in many stories, but this is the first I've seen of Mal returning the favour... I could very much believe that they would choose to ignore Inara's past, the elephant in the room nobody talks about...

Very nice!
ANONYMOUS
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 05:15
oh so beautiful. It makes the transition for both of them seem real. That thing that we want for them to actually exist. And it makes sense for them to try and ignore things as much as possible. And this is my favourite bit.
<i>Mal sighed, adjusting Inara in his arms so that her head was resting on his shoulder. Mal noticed not for the first time that there were lines under her eyes now, formed over years of worrying on one thing or another. There were lines, too, around her lips, and though Mal could not say with certainty that they were not caused by frowns he liked to believe that they were due to smiles. As he ran his fingers idly through her hair, which she so rarely let hang down nowadays as wearing it up was much more practical, and he thought about her smile, everything it had meant before and what it meant now.</i>
Beautiful writing!
-kellibus

Tuesday, 11 April 2006 06:10
Damn it....I'm getting all teary here.....but I'm glad:)

This is some definitely powerful stuff here, Arcadia....so true to the characters portrayed here and so painful too:( You want to happy that Mal and Inara finally decided to get together, but knowing that Inara's past had to be ignored and her beauty marred by scarring just hits you below the belt. The joy coming at the expense of Inara herself in several ways. I am just glad Mal finally came to realize the truth in the end:)

BEB
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 12:51
Elegant, poigniant(some day I'll learn how to spell that word), touching, and remarkable hot while maintaining no higher than a PG-13, even a PG rating.

I comment generously but I tend to Rate harshly. I don't give 10s often. Your's is the third piece I've given a 10 to on this site.
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 13:39
I followed Goldy's rec here and I must say that it was extremely justified -- this is just so beautiful, hauntingly so and a little sad but I love how Mal and Inara have made it work. Despite all the hardships and stubborness and all the scars (*wink*) they're still together. Gives me fuzzy feelings and hope. Well done!
ANONYMOUS
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 15:37
all you deserve for this is the first word/noise that came out of my mouth when i finished reading this. "Guh!"
ANONYMOUS
Tuesday, 11 April 2006 18:13
Brilliant, poetical even! Loved this and so love that Inara gently reminds Mal that she chose him but she still likes to keep her secrets. If it means they can be happy and together I agree with her. Ali D :~)
You can't take the sky from me
ANONYMOUS
Wednesday, 12 April 2006 07:37
Hello there,

I always felt kind of sorry for Inara.

Its strange how she keeps talking about choices; about how she always chooses her clients, chooses her situations, how the choice is always hers. But I keep thinking about how she started training to be a Companion when she was like, 12.I remember when I was 12, every week I wanted to be something different when I grew up.

It seemed to me that the Companion training took away her choices in life, I mean, after so long preparing to be one thing, how hard would it be for her to turn around and be something else.

I'm not saying she didn't enjoy her work, I'm just saying its a damn good thing she did, otherwise she would have been miserable doing the only thing it was made possible for her to do.

Just a thought. Great writing.
ANONYMOUS
Thursday, 13 April 2006 04:16
Oh, I like!

Very nice .. wonderful ending, no sex but lots implied. Very interesting turn of their lives, and I enjoyed the bit of grieft about no kids, as sad as it was. Made it more real.

very nice job!
ANONYMOUS
Monday, 24 April 2006 01:30
i liked it so much i hade to come back and reed it agen
MCK
Friday, 28 April 2006 00:03
Just the perfect way to end my day. That had all the ring of truth. If Mal and Inara were ever to get together and make it work there would always have to be a little bit of pain. I don't think those two could ever separate pain from pleasure. Masochistic in an emotional way those two are. I think you managed to hold on the that very crucial aspect.
If this is how you deal with writer's block.... Can't wait for more chapters in over the hills.
ANONYMOUS
Sunday, 30 April 2006 11:15
*all teary-eyed*
Loved the story (don't mind the tears, I'm just overly emotional today, so really, that's the best compliment I can give you). Beautiful phrasing, and awww for the M/I. I loved it.
Tnx for posting!

CCke
Monday, 01 May 2006 03:21
I liked it, hell... I LOVED it so sweet yet bittersweet at the same time... lol, confusing, no? One personal thing is I think your Mal is a bit too... something... can't quite place it but it doesn't quite sound like Mal when I was reading it... sorry I can't be more helpful... and this is just my personal feelings but it just seemed kinda off... Still a damn good piece of work though =)
Monday, 01 May 2006 03:25
Went back and re-read... finally put my finger on it, mal is a bit too understanding in this... he's always so bull-headed and stubborn, so it kinda threw me when I saw that he finally figured out that he confused Inara too... so yes, I take back my "something about Mal seemed off" comment, I'm just not used to him being understanding and not fighting with 'Nara
Wednesday, 14 June 2006 18:26
as i was reading this, oasis' wonderwall came on the radio and with the combination of the beautiful words you and liam gallacher were pouring out, i couldn't help it, i just burst into tears like a big blubbering baby.

b

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