To my Wash,

I don’t know why I’m writing this. Inana said that it might help me get over your death. Writing to you. Trying to explain what I’m feeling (not something I’m good at outside of our bunk if you remember). Something she learnt in the training house. Some of her clients find it useful she said. But I don’t know. How can I get over when I never got a chance to say good bye to your body. All we found when we got back to Serenity was your blood all over the bridge. Jayne, in particular, and all the others I’m sure as well, reckons either the Reavers or the Alliance took you when they boarded the ship. The Hwoon dahn took you from me. During the war (I know how you hate to hear those words) me and Mal saw lots guys and gals getting blown-up, shot, all sorts, but we always tried to bury them. But I couldn’t even bury you, all I could do was make a cairn for you, along with the Preacher and Mr. Universe, but we buried their bodies.

All’s well on the ship I suppose. She’s back to her beautiful self, none of that Reaver crap on it. Not sure Kaylee will forgive Mal for doing that to Serenity. Speaking of Kaylee, her and Simon have finally got it together. Kaylee said that just before we started battling the Reavers, Simon said that he wanted to be with her, and that helped to get her through it. Boy finally managed to say the right thing. Jayne’s….. well Jayne. He’s quieter. We all are, I guess. He misses Book, says that the two of them talked a lot about lots of philosophical matters. Well I find that hard to believe, it being Jayne and all, but……. who knows. Inara sticking around for the moment. I hope she stays, for Mal mostly, but also for everyone else. She can just keep the calm relaxing face, radiates like. Not that I’ve taken a fancy to her or anything, I’m not about to live out your little fantasy, now that your not here.

Mal’s alright I guess. He misses you more than you probably think, ‘specially since he’s taken to teaching River to fly Serenity. She’s a bit looser with the controls than yo