Finding Precision
Sunday, October 22, 2006
"That was the night she told them she was leaving." Post-OiS. Simon/Inara.
CATEGORY: FICTION TIMES READ: 2617 RATING: 9.0 (PG) SERIES: FIREFLY
Title : Finding Precision
Disclaimer : All things shiny and Firefly -like belong to that Joss Whedon man-person.
Pairing : Simon/Inara, (Mal/Inara, Simon/Kaylee)
Summary : Simon and Inara share a moment (or several), and Simon has an emo diary (okay—that we already knew).
Spoilers : Post-Object in Space
Rating : PG
Words : 1, 830
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Simon kept a stack of journals in the infirmary. If asked, he claimed they were for medical purposes. And they were, in a way. His notes were a meticulous and detailed account of River’s progress since he’d rescued her from that tyen-sah Alliance facility.
If anything, Early’s appearance helped River. She’s found some sort of mental balance not present before…. Oddly, she’s also formed a bond with the Captain. Of what kind, I am not certain. Time can only bring those answers.
Sometimes I cannot say if the drugs do anything to help. I worry that it’s something inside River that makes her this way, something I can never hope to reach. But she’s been laughing more lately. I want… I need her to be happy.
He set his pen down because his leg was shaking. More of a twitch than a tremor, but he found it sufficiently distracting. He closed his eyes, his fingers unconsciously massaging his forehead.
Early had left Kaylee with the deepest scars. Simon knew he would have died that night if it meant protecting Kaylee’s honor. But he found he was no good at comforting Kaylee in the aftermath. It was all awkward silences and pauses with Kaylee looking like she expected his tongue to curl up on itself. So she avoided him and he avoided her, and if it meant putting off the inevitable unpleasantness, he would go right on making things worse.
I wonder… the ease in which Early found his way on here… can we ever be safe? Will we spend the rest of our lives running? There will be more like Early, there will always be more.
He sensed someone entering the infirmary and stopped his writing. His pen lef
Well done!
>They might have simply been two lonely people, but it brought him a moment’s peace.<
Great Job, Love your work!
They definitely have that "je ne sais quoi" kind of connection between one another...though I doubt if the meshing would have been complete. Mal and Kaylee are factors having Newtonian effects on Inara and Simon, forcing alterations of who they "are." Those effects were generally positive, though occasional rough and uncontrolled;)
BEB
It makes you see how Simon is bound hand and feet by his life, he has nothing to give, nowhere to go, no choice in anything, no control over his life. And I see how he can envy Inara her freedom of choice.
Those phrases put it so precisely:
“He doesn’t pay me at all.”
"Me and River came here empty-handed".
"The fact that she could choose to leave when he could not?"
And I see how Inara leaving would break not only Mal's heart. It would be very hard on Simon and Kaylee as well, as she was their respective best friend. Plus for Simon it would also mean losing the last glimpse of civilization...
But Simon is also pitying Inara, for being alone, and uncertain, and having to keep secrets she can't share with anyone. That's something he can really emphasise with: the years when he had to go through the same, trying to get to River, were the worst in his life, no doubt. So this one really hits home:
"he was so intimately familiar with the fear that comes from uncertainty, of the unknown"
And I so love this:
"He wondered if anyone had ever known Inara. Mal certainly tried, and perhaps his loud voice and insults got him farther than Simon could ever hope to."
And the bit about "child-like fear" - that's Inara when she's breached down to her heart, I can just see her.
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