STEAMER

It wasn't going to last. I might have known it wasn't going to last. Didn't really expect that it would. Hoped that it might lead someplace special, but the realist in me kept nattering that there wasn't a snowball's chance in hell it would ever lead me to what I wanted most. Another person. Someone to share with. Happiness, sadness, joy, grief, everything that faces us human beings today. How many of us face it alone? Too many. What happens to people who stand alone to face every rutting thing life has to throw at them? Don't know. But I'm going to find out. I'm a patient man, that's one thing that 27 years of rejection will do for you. They'll also turn you into the person you truly are. Realism, patience, understanding, heart; these are all things that I show to everyone. They make me who I am to everyone else. There aren't any who see who I really am. You could count on one hand the people who have seen the bereaved, hardened and outcast soul that lies beneath. You know what they say about looking for love in all the wrong places? Well, times like this compel me to ask, is there a [i]right[/i] place to look for it? Is there [i]any[/i] place to look for it? Sure the hell doesn't feel like it. Sure the hell feels like the one thing that I really need is the one thing that I'm never going to have. Why? Because whatever I appear to be, I am what I am and I've yet to meet a body in this 'verse who wants to accept that. Guy like me, does he [i]ever[/i] get loved? Or does he just go through his whole damn life being expected to change who he is just to suit everybody else's mood? I ain't with that. I'm fed up with having to be the one who has to change and I'm fed up with being rejected because of the kind of guy I am and I'm fed up with being brushed aside because everyone else is too gorram busy thinking about themselves. But if that's how life's going to be, might as well learn to live with it, just like every other crock of shit I've had to put up with. This was fated to happen, it might as well happen two days before my birthday. I might as well be left to wonder if I'm ever going to be loved for who and what I am and if I'm ever going to matter two-thirds of a turd to anyone. Till that happens – won't be getting my hopes up at that – stay on the move, that's the key. Who knows? Maybe I'll run across some kind of light to shed on this black hole where my heart used to be.

MPHILLIPS

Sad news gang..fridays little lightning we had show decided to hit and set fire to one of the buildings I work at..we managed to get all the elderly folk out without injury or mishap, but the building's a total loss..(to the tune of 2.6 million dollars...) so needless to say I've been pretty busy of late...we isolated that building and got power and water to the rest of the property so that's a plus... watching someone who's lived a lifetime pick through their trashed, burnt memories is not my idea of a fun time..... so moral of the story in two words...renters insurance..that's it for now...gotta get some sleep...

MSG

It's always interesting to me when someone uses backwards writing to mask what they are saying...for example elohssa tihs tae ...eat sh*t a**hole Teachers have sharp little eyes...

WANMEI

Hey guys. I know it's been a while since I updated Cruel Summer but I promise I'll write more soon. I've just recently really lost my Firefly muse and I need a bit of a break. I'm sure you understand. I was actually close to updating, but then I had my heart broken and my muse flatlined again. Now I have an idea for a piece of original fiction that I need to get out. After that, however, back to Cruel Summer. In short, please bear with me! More soon, I swear!

LEIASKY

If anyone is going to the below Conventions, let me know, I'm always up for meeting new people. Obviously, as I live in Los Angeles, these are in the LA area. Los Con - Nov 24-26 Flanvention - Dec 8-10 Galifrey - Feb 2007

MARINE

A man is only as good as his word. He who knows and knows he knows is wise, follow him. He who knows not and knows not that he knows not, is a fool, shun him. He who knows not and knows he knows not is simple, teach him. He who knows and knows not that he knows is asleep, awaken him. From my advanage point, I see wonderful people here. I wish the rest of the world always protrayed such people...

ESPRITNOIR

I passed my driving test!!! Third time lucky I guess *_^ Thank Buddha... Now...onto flight school so I can pilot Serenity! Haha...I'm such a retard sometimes...

COSMICFUGITIVE

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BRAINSPECIALIST

Since I dumped Deus Ex Machina, I had to come up with a new series. That series is Remembrance. It describes the events leading up to something that shook the universe. Also, it's written from Simon Tam's point of view. Although the story takes place fifteen months after Miranda, the author (Simon himself) sees the events described in remembrance as having happened ten years ago. So, basically, here's a timeline: Serenity (Pilot)--Eight months--Miranda--Fifteen months--The events described in Remembrance--Ten years--Simon Tam writes Remembrance Hope that makes it clear.

ALMEDA

Sister and brothe River,Simon.

SAVEWASH

Okay, that title sounds a little misleading. I'm not really [i]leaving[/i], as in permanently; rather, I'm going out of town for several days and won't have access to this site during that time. :crap: I don't know how I'll manage, but I'll be spending time with family so it won't be too bad. I don't know how many people will read this. I just wanted to try my first blog and let y'all know why you aren't hearing from me. I'll be gone through September 6. In the meantime, have fun and save some of the good stuff for when I get back! :biggrin: Browncoats are the greatest.