Life Onboard Serenity #44: Who We Were (NEW CHARACTERS WELCOME!!!)
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So Ivy was having some episodes. Grayson's brow knitted together in concern. But he kept quiet. He wanted to hear what Pain had to say, no matter how much it would sadden or anger him. He just wanted Ivy to be safe and get better.
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Originally posted by DRPAIN:
"I know she was raped by her Master, Grayson. Tommy mentioned it and Mal figured it out from the incident that happened today."
Raped? Ivy was raped? Grayson closed his eyes and wanted to cry. His little Ivy, brutalized and raped. He set his lips in a tight line. He should have known though. It was a common practice for a lot of slave owners, but he denied it all earlier, hoping he was wrong.
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Originally posted by DRPAIN:
"Now if you'll excuse me, I've got to go get Tommy. She stormed off when I more or less refused to have sex with her. I'll go get my CorPad so you can talk to me from there. Pain out."
Grayson grimaced a bit. Pain provided a little too much information.
So what had happened today? It must have been a large episode. Grayson wanted more details. He wanted a lot more details. But he had to wait. Ivy needed Pain more than he needed to know right now.
But his anger was growing. More and more as he let his mind imagine the atrocities Ivy might have been subjected to.
He got up and punched the wall. As everyone who ever did that knew, it really didn't help, it just made your hand hurt. He sank back into his chair.
Please let it only be once. Only once she was raped, he thought.
He was quite certain that it was more than just once, but he hoped anyways.
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Tommy was surprised that she managed to get up the ladder and out of the bunk. It hurt a bunch though, but she didn't feel any weaves pull beyond their limits.
She didn't know where to go though. So she just walked. She did it as though she had purpose, even though she didn't beyond wanting to put space in between her and Pain.
Her jaw set as she thought back to their conversation. He had turned her down. He told her that Ivy had been raped, then turned her down for sex. And under the auspices that she was still healing.
But that didn't stop him the times they been with each other since the accident. It was an excuse. He had lied to her. He didn't want her anymore. Now that he knew she was... that she'd been...
I was raped Tommy, she heard Ivy say to her.
"You're not ready to deal with that."
Are you sure?
"We open that door and more will come," she said.
Pain pities me, doesn't he?
"Looks like."
Do you think he still loves me?
Tommy's gait faltered.
"Does it matter?"
Yes.
"I don't know what his feelings are."
Maybe if I just deal with this one part. I can deal with the rapes. John said I should confront my fears.
"John doesn't know you like I do and he shouldn't try to interfere."
Perhaps, but maybe if I could just try to remember...
"No!" Tommy exclaimed as she felt Ivy trying to pull back the layers Tommy worked so hard to cover up the truth. "No!"
But Ivy pushed Tommy aside, like Tommy had done to John earlier, pulled off a piece that covered her inner secret and peered in...
Her eyes widened at what she saw and she started to scream, but Tommy managed to come back, pull her away and seal up the hole.
"You get too close and it will suck you in, Ivy," Tommy said as Ivy cowered in the back of her own mind. "Don't forget that."
Tommy stood up straight as she rounded the corner and ran straight into Jayne.
"Where you goin' little girl?" he growled at her. "Trying to leave?"
"W-What?" Tommy stammered, the startle causing her to begin loosing grip on the reality she was struggling to maintain.
In an instant, Jayne's form was replaced by one of the guards that were in charge of her cell. One of the ones that... Fear crept up, but Tommy managed to keep control and Jayne returned.
"You!" she glared at him. "You might have told Pain that everything you did was for self preservation, but I was there!"
Her hands formed tight fists as she held them at her sides.
"You kissed her back a little more passionately than you needed. You had certain... reactions. I could feel it!"
She narrowed her eyes at him, then her gaze softened.
Leave him alone, Tommy. He isn't like them. He meant no harm.
Tommy clenched her jaw, glared at Jayne, then purposely strode past him and deeper into the ship.
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Serenity wasn't a big ship, but she did have some places about her where someone could hide. Pain scoured the those places looking for Tommy and coming up empty. He had a look of frustration on his face as he stepped out of the small, closet sized storage room that was near where the starboard shuttle was docked. The mercenary then made his way from the catwalk to the stairs leading to the front hall. As he rounded the corner to the stairs, he saw Jayne enter the galley a smirky sneer on his face.
Pain walked over to him and asked, "Have you seen Ivy by any chance?"
"Have I?" he snorted. "Hell, she just bumped into me not that long ago. Talkin' 'bout herself in the third person like a loon." That got Jayne a look from Pain shot at him, but the mercenary shrugged it off and continued, "Went down the stairs in a huff."
Pain moved past Jayne as he headed towards the stairs in the aft hall, bumping his shoulder into Jayne's as he left the galley. Jayne watched Pain disappear down the stairs and then shrugged before going to the pantry to get something to eat.
"Don't rightly know what that man sees in them crazy chicks." he muttered to himself. His eyes widened as he spotted something to nosh on and exclaimed, "OOH! Fruity Oaty Bars!"
Pain took the stairs two at a time, hoping to catch up with Tommy. He felt sorry for blowing her off and wanted to apologize. He didn't mean to deny her sex, but she was healing from her gunshot wounds and he didn't want the weave keeping her wounds sealed to break. That was the only reason why he didn't want to have sex with her. Because he was afraid he'd cause her some harm.
Pain caught a glimpse of blond hair heading towards the passenger dorms and rushed down the remaining stairs after her. He saw Tommy enter Ivy's plant room and managed to get an arm in just as she shut the door on it, causing Pain to muffle a pained moan.
When the door opened, Pain pulled his arm out and clutched it with his other hand. He stood in the doorway rubbing his arm as he looked down at Tommy and said, "Look I'm sorry for turnin' you down for sex. I was just worried that you'd pull your stitches and we'd have to pay a visit to the doc and I'd get a lecture from him while he patched you up. I didn't mean to do that. Not to you or to Ivy, but seein' as you've made it out of our bunk without tearin' anythin', I can see that the stitches are holdin'."
He got down on his knees and looked up into Tommy's scorned eyes and pleaded, "I love you and Ivy no matter what. I'm a moron for turnin' down an offer to show that love and I'm deeply sorry for that. Will you and Ivy look deep into your heart and please forgive this love struck fool for bein' foolish and/or whatever else choice word or words you'd call him? I am willin' to do whatever it takes to make it up to you both."
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She knew it was an obvious place for Pain to look for her, but Tommy went there anyway: Ivy's plant room.
"I still don't trust him, Ivy," Tommy said as she walked down the hallway. "He has that... look."
Inside her mind Ivy sat in the corner rocking back and forth as she looked at the place where she peeked in. She was afraid and she was shaking. She could barely hear Tommy talking.
"...he reminds me of the big one..."
She only saw part of what was inside and it terrified her. She also knew it was just the tip of the iceberg.
"...we'll just have to watch him..."
Tommy? I can't deal with all this...
"...I told you..."
The way they touched me... And now Pain doesn't...
"...I know. Just calm down..." Tommy said as she shut the door to the Plant room.
I gotta go.
"Wait... Ivy?" Tommy said, now getting quite alarmed. "Where are you going?"
Tommy watched in horror as Ivy faded into the shadows.
"Ivy?"
Tommy jumped as Pain spoke to her.
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Originally posted by DRPAIN:
"Look I'm sorry for turnin' you down for sex. I was just worried that you'd pull your stitches and we'd have to pay a visit to the doc and I'd get a lecture from him while he patched you up. I didn't mean to do that. Not to you or to Ivy, but seein' as you've made it out of our bunk without tearin' anythin', I can see that the stitches are holdin'."
He got down on his knees and looked up into Tommy's scorned eyes and pleaded, "I love you and Ivy no matter what. I'm a moron for turnin' down an offer to show that love and I'm deeply sorry for that. Will you and Ivy look deep into your heart and please forgive this love struck fool for bein' foolish and/or whatever else choice word or words you'd call him? I am willin' to do whatever it takes to make it up to you both."
"Ivy?" Tommy said aloud as she looked around. She couldn't see her. She turned and looked down at Pain. "Pain! She's gone! Ivy's gone! I can't find her anywhere!"
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Ivy's Old Room (aka Ivy's Plant Room)
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Originally posted by EnglishIvy:
"Ivy?" Tommy said aloud as she looked around. She couldn't see her. She turned and looked down at Pain. "Pain! She's gone! Ivy's gone! I can't find her anywhere!"
"What do you mean you can't find her?" asked Pain in a worried and concerned tone that matched the look on his face. "You both share the same brain and body. Not like she can go far."
Pain was met with a glare from Tommy and he immediately apologized to her.
"Sorry, baobei." he said to her, wiping away a tear from Tommy's face that had left a trail down her cheek. He looked into her emerald green eyes and continued, "I'm sure if'n we look hard enough we can find her, or perhaps she'll find her own way back. Either way I'll do my best to help and pray that she comes back soon."
Meanwhile...
As Pain held and comforted Tommy in Ivy's old room, John was making a recovery from his psychic attack, Wolf and Mal's chat had a positive effect on the former, and Knives and the rest of Serenity's crew and miscreants got themselves ready for the job that was most certainly anything but run of the mill.
OOC: Wolf? John? Bueller? Are you out there????
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Originally posted by DRPAIN:
Ivy's Old Room (aka Ivy's Plant Room)Quote:
"Sorry, baobei. I'm sure if'n we look hard enough we can find her, or perhaps she'll find her own way back. Either way I'll do my best to help and pray that she comes back soon."
"But Pain... I've never been here and her not be," Tommy said looking up into Pain's eyes. "I'm not the main personality. I;m here to help her. I'm not here to be in charge. If she is gone, I don't know what to do!"
Tommy buried her face into Pain's chest.
"She looked... She looked Pain. I told her not to and she looked anyway," Tommy told him. She looked back up at him. "She saw it all. All of it. And she couldn't deal and now she's gone."
She started to tremble.
"What am I going to do?" Tommy asked him. She shuddered. "I don't feel good...I want to lie down."
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Originally posted by EnglishIvy:
"What am I going to do?" Tommy asked him. She shuddered. "I don't feel good...I want to lie down."
"Alright." replied Pain as he stroked Tommy's back while she kept her face buried in his chest. "I'll carry you back to our bunk so you can lie down in the bed. I'll stay with you til you feel better and then stay with you some more."
Pain kissed the top of Tommy's head and added, "The others can go on the job. I'll stay aboard here with you."
And with that Pain scooped Tommy up into his arms and carried her out of Ivy's old bunk. He closed the door behind him and then proceeded to carry her up the stairs near the infirmary and towards his and Ivy's bunk. He didn't want to leave her alone again after the day's events.
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Tommy laid her head on Pain's shoulder, melting into him. She closed her eyes and looked deep for Ivy.
IVY! IVY! COME BACK! she yelled inside her head. IVY!
A resounding silence was all that greeted her.
IVY! Please come back! she called out. I don't know what to do! I'm not supposed to be here all alone!
She listened again. Nothing.
IVY-
Only Ivy's voice was heard.
He'll hate me. He won't want me. Broken beyond repair. What I did. It's too much.
NO! He loves you!
Take care of him Tommy. I can't bear to have him know. Be strong Tommy.
"Ivy!" she whispered. She opened her eyes and found that they were already down in their bunk. "She was there for a moment. Her voice. She knows everything and can't deal. Thinks she's too broken..."
Tommy looked at Pain in the eyes.
"We have to make sure she doesn't disappear. And we have to do it fast! She needs to know you love her. She needs to believe she is worth saving."
A tear slid down her face.
"We have to do something right now."
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Pain and Ivy's Bunk
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Originally posted by EnglishIvy:
A tear slid down her face.
"We have to do something right now."
Pain wiped away the tear that ran down Tommy's cheek. He felt bad for what Ivy had been through in her past. The traumatic horrors she saw and experienced. What happened to her was something Pain wouldn't have wished on his worst enemy. And now he was faced with a possibility that his love would be gone forever just because she thought he didn't love her, due to the fact that he didn't take her in their room moments before.
Well he was going to do something about that now. Something to show both Tommy and Ivy that he loved them both. Pain looked into Tommy's eyes, saw the worried and lost look in them, and brought his lips to hers'. He kissed her longingly, slowly, and passionately. Things would only progress from there as the kissing became more heated and Pain moved towards the bed.
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Tommy kissed Pain back with a hunger and desperation never felt before. Tongues tangled and clothes were shed in an almost violent way. She needed him. Needed him like the air she breathed. But most of all, she needed him to help her find a piece of herself. The piece otherwise known as Ivy. The one who is stronger than she gave herself credit for and the one whose absence would mean catastrophic change.
Tommy needed Ivy. She needed her more than Ivy needed Tommy. For Tommy was support for Ivy and without her? What would Tommy do? Could she exist just on her own?
"I love you, Pain," Tommy murmured to him. She always called him Pain. Ivy called him by his given name, but that wasn't her right. "Oh God! I love you."
She pulled Pain down onto the bed until they lay side by side. As they continued to kiss, their hands began to roam each others' bodies. She touched his chest and stomach, trying to memorize every ripple of muscle. She felt his arms around her, stroking her back, making her feel safe.
Pain was a good man.
She hooked a leg over his hip as he ran his hands over her soft skin, taking in every curve and swell of her body as she moaned in response.
"You feel so good..." Pain whispered in her ear before moving to nibble on her earlobe and neck then back to her lips.
She gently rolled onto her back, Pain following her, ending up above her, his eyes searching hers for any glint of Ivy or of any kind of fear that may have been fallout from earlier revelations about her abuse at the hands of her captors.
She opened herself to him and urged him to continue, partly wanting to selfishly experience him for herself, but overwhelmingly wanting Ivy to see that he loved her.
"Please..." she begged, noting his pause, knowing exactly what he was worried about. "I'm not afraid..."
Pain nodded just barely as he kept his eyes locked on hers as he slid himself in. She really did feel good and he almost didn't even hear the groan that emitted from his own mouth.
They laid there for a moment, just coupled and looking into each other's eyes.
"Please..." she asked again as her lips met his and their tongues began their dance together again. "Slow... Just like she likes it..."
Pain set the pace, a languid, almost excruciatingly slow, tempo. He used long deep strokes as he moved in combination with showering her with kisses and following the slopes of her body with his hands.
They went on like that for what seemed like an eternity - a beautiful, sensual, soul melding eternity - not realizing or caring about a goal in mind.
Things had progressed to only wanting to enjoy each other while they poured out their love to one another. And if it took all night, then all night it would be.
After a while, she began to mirror his movements, her hands running through his short hair, over his strong shoulders and down his muscular back. They were both yearning for each other as they fell deeper into the throes of passion.
She whimpered as each new sensation brought her closer to him and hopefully closer to Ivy as well.
Ivy, please come back, she thought. How could you not know this man loves you.
She urged Pain to quicken his pace, gasps coming quicker now as she let herself be enveloped by this man. This man called Pain. Moans and groans of his own mixed with hers in a symphony of souls, bodies and minds becoming one.
Pain placed his forehead on hers and looked into her eyes as the two experienced rapture beyond all description. And while they watched each other, Tommy's expression softened and her characteristics seemed to change.
As their cries of passion waned, they slowed until they came to a stop, both struggling for air but not willing to let go of each other. She clung to him for an extended hug, then whispered into his ear, telling him that she loved him.
And she called him by his given name. The name only she used when they were alone together. And then she laid her head back down in t
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