Whatever Happened to Live and Let Live?
POSTED BY: 6ixStringJack
UPDATED: Wednesday, November 29, 2006 22:26
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I really can't take this anymore. Everyone, including me, is so gorram opinionated about every damn thing. I drive myself crazy over things that I think are stupid that people type and I always think I'm so 
smart. Is Kramer a racist? Should we let Big Brother vaccinate our children? What came first, the chicken or the egg?
Did you hear about the guy that stabbed someone at a bar 4 times recently because he didn't wash his hands? WTF people?
So this is Christmas.
I can't do it anymore. The government is going to damn well do whatever it wants to and make us do whatever it wants us to do no matter what I say and people are going to believe whatever it is that speaks to them no matter what I say, and bottom line is, who the hell said I was right about anything in the first place?
I don't believe a damn thing that I held as truth 10 years ago, and I really hope that 10 years from now I don't believe a damn thing that I believe today.... I'll be much happier for it. It's not like I do a damn thing about any of the problems I bitch about, with the sole exception of bitching about them.
Is there a way to let go of the opinionation? Is there a way that I can step back inside the box, or at least find balance again? Can I just let things happen around me as they will and stop being the fool on the hill? All I want is a little happiness and somebody share it with.... at least I know that's what I used to want.
I really have all the tools at my disposal... all of the means for the ends I desire, but I just can't seem to figure it all out and put it together. It's a puzzle that simply eludes me....
It's as if I enjoy being miserable... and I hate that.
"A government is a body of people, usually notably ungoverned." http://www.myspace.com/6ixstringjack
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Just breathe, babe.
I'm working in retail right up until the end of Xmas Eve. Gonna be a deal of a**holes in my life.
But just focus on some small stuff to begin with. Mental space. And ignore anything ending in 'olly' until January.
Alternatively, fill a waterpistol and hose down some carol singers.
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Thanks for the pep talk SpaceAnJL. I worked at Toys R Us for a few years when I was a young punk, so I truly feel your pain.
It's not Christmas itself that's making me think this way... or at least, it's not directly Christmas, but more the realization of the hole I've dug myself into and memories of the way this time of year used to feel when I was younger.
I've become obsessed and opinionated about all of the crap in the world that really shouldn't matter if you have something to come back home to, but I don't. I've started to see only the worst in people and I've become the most cynical and negative person I've ever known. I'm a regular freakin' Scrooge, and I'm too young to be like that.
This will be the first year, of 27, that I've ever had to work on Christmas Eve, Christmas, New Years Eve and New Years Day, and it doesn't even bother me that I have to. My holidays are over now, but with the family situation the way that it is and my inability to get back into any sort of meaningful relationship, I didn't have much to look forward to other than getting wasted and the two day hangovers that always follow. I think this is the first year that Christmas is really depressing me because I used to love it, but everything is different now. Christmas is like this grey cloud for me. I told Paul McCartney to shut up today when he kept singing about what a wonderful Christmas time he was having. Sorry Paul, but I've always liked John more anyways.
I don't want to forget about Christmas... I want to forget about all of the other BS that we bitch and argue about. I want to forget about the BS war. I want to forget all the BS about Michael Richards' unfortunate career killing rant and Jessie Jackson trying to start banning free speech by banning the big word.
All I want for Christmas, more than anything in the world, is to not argue about any of this with anyone anymore and to live my damn life again like a normal person and not let it all bother me. I want most of all to feel what it's like to fall in love again. I miss that the most.
But I don't know if I have it in me anymore... "A government is a body of people, usually notably ungoverned." http://www.myspace.com/6ixstringjack
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What you need, my friend, is a holiday. Get yourself somewhere away from the commercial crap, and give yourself some mental space.
Have to say, don't know your personal circs, or any of the RL issues (who Michael Richards?) but I do remember grey days of my own, and that bitter ash of looking around and thinking wtf? Make time for yourself. Be a little selfish.
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6ixstring, I sat here for a long time trying to think of something to say to make it better. I'm still trying to think of something. SpaceAnjl is right. Take time to breathe, let go of your anger.
I worked 12 years in retail, and I always worked the day before the holiday and the day after. During the time of year when people should be the best is when they are the worst. During the last 5 years of my retail hell, I also took day to day care of my mother who had Parkinsons. No relationships, no time off, afraid to go anywhere in case she would fall.
I don't know how you feel about anxiety drugs, but that's what helped me. When it got to the point where mom was accusing me of poisoning her and mismanaging her money, when she would call me so much that I hated hearing the sound of my own name, when the slightest thing would make me erupt ( and cry uncontrollably), I got a medication for anxiety. Thank God for Celexa and a doctor who was worried about me.
Sometime after she died, I stopped taking it. When I had a better control over my life. I wouldn't have been able to deal with anything if it hadn't been for my best friend, the medication, and (corny enough, I know) my pets.
Get a pet, find someone to talk to, write all the negative crap in a journal... do something. It's no way to live, being angry all the time. Look for random acts of kindness. Hell, carry out a random act yourself. I'm sorry if that came out preachy, but I'm worried about you.
I wish you nothing but joy in this holiday season. May you see not the bad, but the good. May you let go of crap that upsets you, so that you can find some peace. I hope that something I said, or anyone else has said, can be of some value.
Good luck 6ixstring.
Deb
http://serendipityagain.com/
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6ixString, what you wrote could have very well been written by me. I wrote a whole big spiel on my views but then erased it. While I think I'm right and justified, I am slowly coming to the conclusion that not everyone wants to hear it. Time to retire my soapbox.
So here is my Yin and Yang. Somewhere in the middle is balance.
"God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I Cannot change…
Courage to change the things I can
And Wisdom to know the difference…"
And,
"If you want something done right, you have to do it yourself."
Now I'm in no way a religious man, but I like the prayer none the less.
If I find that balance, I'll let you know. Until then, I won't let it ruin my holiday season. That's a price I'm not willing to pay. I hope you'll do the same.
In the words of the great Burl Ives...
"Have a holly, jolly Christmas;
It's the best time of the year
I don't know if there'll be snow
but have a cup of cheer
Have a holly, jolly Christmas;
And when you walk down the street
Say Hello to friends you know
and everyone you meet..."
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"Got a headful of lightning
And a heart full of rain
And I know that I said
I'd never do it again
Oh and I love you sweet baby but I always take the long way home."
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Originally posted by 6ixStringJack:
I can't do it anymore. The government is going to damn well do whatever it wants to and make us do whatever it wants us to do no matter what I say....
From the “For What It’s Worth” File….Questioning one’s existence and purpose in life is a good thing… finding the answers is the problem….
On the Government Issue, you are right to acknowledge that the power belongs to the powerful, but as to what can be done, that happens in small, time-consuming steps.
Let tell you about something that happened to me in college. I started out at a small east Texas university in a city (town) whose population was not much larger than that of the student body of the school. I won’t mention the year but to say that this was at a time when the entire nation was struggling with the civil rights issue. Some of the more activist students recognized some injustice in the legal system of that town and organized in an effort to make a change. This included students as well as civic-minded citizens of the town. Before long we had numbers that could not be ignored, and actually made a change for the better there. It wasn’t always easy, but the truth is that there is strength in numbers and steadfast determination. If you keep hitting someone over the head long enough and with enough force, that person is going to eventually notice you.
So if you feel strongly about a position, I would advise going after it with all you have to offer, be it organizing, leading the way or simply offering your heart and soul to the effort.
There are always setbacks. As you get older, you realize that even fighting the good fight can sometimes be a losing battle. We can strive and hope for the best, but it’s not unwise to expect the worst.
Or, you can do what I’ve done in my old age, move to quiet place in the country, stick a fork in the television, listen to nature take it’s course and try not to get caught up in the day to day melodrama that is the planet earth dwindling away.
Remember, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, just hope it’s not an oncoming train.
Edit: when I started this little spiel, my intentions were to make you feel better… really. Just let me say that I’ve been where you’re at now and problems can be resolved by focusing on the good things in your life. There is a balance to all things. I hope you get back around on top for a while.
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Originally posted by sweetserendipity:
Get a pet, find someone to talk to, write all the negative crap in a journal
Pets always help. My dog always loves me.
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//breathe today So many lies s w i r l i n g
All A R O U N D You
you're S U F F O C A T I N G
the e m p t y shape in Y O U
s t e a l s your b r e a t h
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I would never push someone, but I'm going back to my nice warm comforting liberal Protestant Methodist church for Advent .
Listen to the old songs. Wrap myself in the comfort of nice old folks. Listen to sermons about being welcome home to the loving arms of God, not about casting out unbelievers.
I don't believe much of it,
but it's a comfort thing, and they'll make me welcome. Go to the social hall and drink a cup of bad coffee and eat a stale donut. Listen to the questions and loving if wrong advice about my life and kids, given by little old ladies who could be my Mom.
Gonna go Christmas Eve and sing Silent Night by candle light, then leave the church is silence, and try to stay in that high place for a while, and I' m really sorry you have to work and miss that one...
Geez, I'd type some more, but I got my self all weepy. I got troubles, too, and so does the world. Gotta put then aside a little, get a little comfort and joy.
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Originally posted by 6ixStringJack:
All I want for Christmas, more than anything in the world, is to not argue about any of this with anyone anymore and to live my damn life again like a normal person and not let it all bother me. I want most of all to feel what it's like to fall in love again. I miss that the most.
But I don't know if I have it in me anymore...
Let's see if I've figured out this quote thing - As someone who has lived a few more Christmases than you - not that it necessarily means a heck of a whole lot - I think I get your frustration with yourself and the rest of the world.
I frequently find myself getting all excited about something - often it's something that I have absolutely no power to control much less affect. While I believe it is important for us to voice our opinions about what is going on in the world, it's equally important to temper the "voicing" with "listening" "considering" and, yes, "letting go" of those things that we can't control. It's knowing the different and making a choice to speak or act that often makes us effective or simply acting out of frustration.
I find myself constanting questioning and frequently there just aren't any good answers. As far as changing my opinions and viewpoint on things, I'm with you there, too. It seems that could bode to flexibility and open-mindedness rather than stubborness and rigidity - or I guess some might call it wishy-washy or waffling. Different points of view at different times - I try to remember to breathe, connect with my own inner source and trust that things will change, for the better or not - I can only affect what is within my sphere of influence - not necessarily my sphere of interest.
Christmas time has long been a time of longing for family and connection, nostalgia for what could have been and hope for something better - I wish you inner peace and connection to your deepest and most perfect self.
Siri
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