Male and Female Imponderables--Post-Resurrection
POSTED BY: Tristan
UPDATED: Tuesday, June 13, 2006 12:56
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I guess I'm just fine but okay so I'm drowning in a sea of uncertainity! I love him/he is not the one for me! Somedays I want to hurt everyone.
Functioning on this level is difficult. I don't have to worry about anyone's feelings but my own and no one is worring about me. That sort of teamwork has died! I'm happy......or am I? I'm just fine I think?
Yes this is the manner in which my mind is working currently!
An I carried such a torch.......For the Dark Lord
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Oh honey tell me about it!
I've seriously had thoughts like "Just walk through that door and everything will be forgiven and we'll be fine..." and then follows "No we bloody well won't be fine you cockbite! I'll slap you till you spin if you dare show up here!" Then with the "Who am I kidding? Never gonna see him again anyway! And he was obviously all wrong for me. But I love him so. And I miss him.
And dammit why doesn't he miss me??" 
Blah 
See I can't start thinking about it or, like you and probably everyone else, I stop making any sense and just worry about what it was that made everything suck.
There should be some kind of "Dumped" support group where we can work all those tangled thoughts out!
"Therapy and recreation for the newly single - How to Stop Obsessing Over What Went Wrong"
Or something.
I guess we have a semblance of that here, though 
Just know, I totally feel you. We're not alone, and that may just mean we're not extremely crazy.
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I'm glad you're online PhonixRose! I hurt but I'm happy!
I broke up with him. It's so hard to think of or explain mostly I just want to bash my head into walls and be done with it. I want him to be happy and then I'm angry he is okay? I suck I'm confused I'm pacing in crazy cirles.
This is hard! It finally feels real and it's really scary!
An I carried such a torch.......For the Dark Lord
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Well, I'm proud of you. I know you were getting unhappy there, so it's good I think. I can't tell you if or when the hurt will go away, though. But hey, we're girls, right? We supposedly have nine times the pain tolerance... Wait, that's for physical pain. Um...
Boys are stupid anyway!
Boys are stupid. Throw rocks at them!
I had that on a postcard once, after my first semi-major breakup. Always made me feel better. Also a really tight sexy shirt with a Pinochio picture on it that said "Boys Lie". I kinda regret getting rid of that, now.
You know what we need, of course? (other than finding smart men to replace the stupid boys, of course) We need ice cream! Or maybe s'mores flambe.
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Can I drowned my icecream in vodka?
I feel like hell! I feel wonderious!
An I carried such a torch.......For the Dark Lord
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Erm, if you like.
*scoops ice cream into glass*
There; Vodka Float! Not sure how tasty it will be, but hey, why not?
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You didn't see anything...
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Alcomehol should taste awfull I'm sure. thing are things are upside down and backward now sorry darlin dear!
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There, there *pet pet* You have your nerve-numbing comfort and I'll have my chocolate. We both know it's only a temporary solution anyway.
*munches on s'mores*
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