stop fighting no 

go 

can’t get out of my head.

I’m trapped, trapped here,

three dimensional physical representation of the whole, affected by four no no too ineffective could be better.

should be better.

shouldn’t be stuck, nothing holding me in, but the more I try the harder it gets. can’t tell Simon, he’ll think I’ve slipped, gone off the deep end.

theoretically possible. astral projection, shaman, shamaning? can’t remember doesn’t matter.

should be able too, meditation, belief, it's all in the belief, belief in self is belief in others, not a Hindu, empirical data supporting the claim of rebirth is weak at best, but I believe in the possibility of the evidence presented being real. should be enough.

Captain wants me to stop muttering again.

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Moonside.

can’t hear the stars

the clouds too thick

so quiet can’t see myself think.

River’s like a pond, pond becomes mirror

disappears in the blackness.

It’s quiet outside of me tonight

inside still a buzz

more softly now.

doesn’t echo as much as in space

in space nowhere for their heads to go but in.

dirt’s much better, softens voices, dull roar.

easier to be River.

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Malcolm Reynolds Dream.

sea greens sea blues

dog tags, cat naps.

friendly Shadows

family farm

soft voices soft hair

quiet days

no war.

it’s like I’m almost there.

the Cap’n don’t sleep less we’re neath 

the sky again.

-River

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paradox

wings of death

shadowy eyes

/follows same path don’t fall again/

rivers of brown

coats of blood

haunting

/fighting differently still fighting same war/

don’t wanna be trusted

but won’t ever

betray.

paradox.

Zoe’s turn to do the

dishes tonight.

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Surprise.

pizza tonight ( H2O,  Saccharomyces cerevisae, powdered wheat, oil of  Olea europaea, Sodium Chloride, Sucrose, Lycopersicon esculentum, Heiphinic wotis, stir, mix, spread, bake, cut, serve ) Kaylee's special surprise, comes with announcement, ( s