Blue Sun Room FICTION - DRAMA

Where I Belong: Part II of 6

Friday, May 18, 2007

The war hits home a bit more closely for Kaykee after a rather one sided arguement with Simon. S/K

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Author's Notes: Thanks to those who read and commented. Glad you're liking the story so far.

There are actually 6 parts to this. When I wrote the last part, I forgot that I felt it was too long and split it up.

Thanks to http://www.fireflyfans.net/showprofile.asp?un=mal4prez>Mal4Prez for the beta.

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Where I Belong

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Part II

Simon flattened a hand to his chest in an attempt to calm his racing heart. His head lolled to one side and he panted heavily, waiting for his body to stop trembling, for that post-coital tingling in his limbs to fade.

Kaylee lay sprawled atop him and he could feel the sharp thud of her heart beat against his abdomen, the small puffs of air escaping her parted lips doing absolutely nothing to cool his over-heated skin. She was nothing if not exhausting, beautiful and painfully arousing wrapped into one hell of an energetic package.

He’d let Kaylee take the lead, small payment for his inexcusable behavior the night before. And she’d led the way to the most exciting, pleasurable morning, of his life. But, as his mind began to regain some of its normal functionality, he realized with a sharp pant that it had done nothing to assuage the guilt he felt over how they’d come together – finally, after so many months of tiptoeing carefully around her unhidden interest. He didn’t know how to tell her how much he regretted that this happened now, the way it had. He’d wanted to make love to her for the first time in a real bed, when he was free to give her his whole heart, not one rife with worry over his broken and mentally traumatized sister. And in one weak moment, he’d –

“Simon?”

He blinked quickly and glanced down into Kaylee’s bright eyes and smiling face, struck speechless by the sultry look she leveled at him.

“Kaylee – I –“

She crossed her hands atop his on his chest and waited, clearly unfazed by his stuttering. “Don’t think you got ‘nuff sleep. Still got them big, dark circles under your –“

Si

Comments
Friday, 18 May 2007 15:51
Kaylee seems a little too critical here, I think she would have wanted to let Simon explain rather than get all snappy and hurt by jumping to conclusions. If she thought about it she would know that Simon wouldn't just be after a warm body to satisfy his sexual cravings, it simply isn't his way. And crumbs, poor Simon caught in that blast. I hope both he and River are going to be alright. Ali D :~)
You can't take the sky from me
Friday, 18 May 2007 15:55
Ahh, but remember how immature she is in taking everything he says, or doesn't say, to heart? She did it all through the series, overreacted spectacularly, and now she's going to have to deal with the guilt. . .
Friday, 18 May 2007 16:59
NO! SIMON!!

Ok, you haven't killed him, since there are still four more parts left.

Right...

Right...?

This is awesome. I'm loving it even more! Post quicker! :D

ACtually it's working quite well with you and Tamsibling appearing to post on alternate days, I'm getting my fix nice and regular like.
Friday, 18 May 2007 22:53
This was heart-wrenching only because you've written Simon's regret and conflict so amazingly well. I admit, I was cringing when Kaylee started her attack, but it was perfectly in character for her. Amazing how all the things she accused him of were the exact things Simon was worried about. Maybe they know each other a bit better than they think.

I really hope you didn't kill him though - I know how you enjoy inflicting pain on Simon, but please don't kill him ... although the guilt Kaylee'd be in for ... woohoo!
Saturday, 19 May 2007 00:17
wow.
this was really really great....the angst is very palpable and I have to agree with everyone that Kaylee's on the short end of her temper here...but yeah she did tend to overreact to things. However, Simon is a major boob.
As old as he is, he should be able to express himself by now, no? writing for the show they built that up too much I think...now we're paying a price every time someone has to write his inabilty to sort through his feelings for her and actually say I Love You, Kaylee....which is what we all wanted and never got..even in the damm movie.
Your usual great work. And finally...
You really like injuring that man, don't you?
Saturday, 19 May 2007 14:51
But Simon injures so well... maybe not as well as Mal, but that's for me to do ;)

Seriously, nice writing Leiasky! Kaylee is being over sensitive and silly, and Simon's a dope, but hey - if we were all reasonable and well adjusted, where would the drama be?
Saturday, 19 May 2007 15:53
Normally, I wouldn't think you killed Simon, but after the (we assume) massacre in your previous series I'm not so sure.

While Kaylee was getting angry at Simon and he stayes silent, I actually said out loud 'say something!' My dad's looking at me like I'm crazy.
Sunday, 20 May 2007 19:02
I have to disagree with you there, BigBadJayne...being s certain age doesn't guarantee one has the ability to convey feelings in an effective manner. I know I suck at talking about how I feel with people, close or stranger, and I am less than a handful of years younger than Simon is supposed to be. Hell, Mall is about 6 years older than Simon and Jayne is a decade plus older than Simon...neither one of them are masters of emotionally-oriented conversation. Though I see your point...Simon's boobishness is frustrating to read at times, since we know he has all these shiny feelings hidden deep inside him.

And Kaylee is definitely in fine form here...though for less-than-stellar reasons. She's had several months to get to know Simon and she still thinks he is capable of loving them and leaving them? Guess Kaylee's hidden self-doubts really come to the fore here, and I think so they should. I really think Joss and his merry band of scribes would have done quite a bit with Kaylee's darker side that was always hidden by her seemingly infinite optimism and friendliness, had the series gone on longer. I really think that a ripe opportunity was missed by a chance for Kaylee's thoughts and feelings concerning River pre-Ois or BDM not being explored. Deep down, how much fear and jealousy did/does Kaylee carry our favourite teenage psychic and one-woman army, because of her relationship with Simon?

BEB

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