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Seems to Kaylee that right now, Serenity is the only thing worth dependin' on out here in the black.

Zoe's got her own to deal with right now, with her bed as empty as the bridge. The pain's never gonna leak outta Zoe's eyes the way it oughta, and funny how Kaylee's never gonna know how that pain was put into Zoe's eyes in the first place. Not sure she wants to, anyway. Wash is dead and ain't no amount of knowin' how it happened is gonna change that it happened in the first place. Still, she wishes she could tell someone how much she's gonna miss dinosaurs and shop-talk and late nights in the pilot seat, knowing another part of her ship 'cause Wash showed her how.

Jayne's the same as he ever was, eatin' and gunnin' and basically being a pain in the pee goo, and Kaylee ain't never depended on Jayne for nothing but a strong set of arms and a real crude tongue in his head anyhow. Inara keeps to herself mostly, and Kaylee suspects after seein' so much death and destruction, even a Companion needs to take somethin' of a break. She don't bother Inara none, not with brushing her hair or nothing. And Inara don't come looking for her, either, and so it's just Kaylee, her and her own solitary self.

Even her Captain, the only other person to love Serenity just as fierce as she does, even he's let her down. She still loves him, loves him better than most any, but she's angry at him, too. He still ain't got to understanding that his decisions touch everyone gorram person on Serenity. He ain't the only one who's got to live with all the things he's made people do.

Ordered her to paint up her ol' boat, her home, with the blood and bones of Haven's cooling bodies. Made her stare down at Shepard's gentle, dead face and made her belly twist with knowin' the Reavers'd kill them, knowin' they might all die. And she doesn't blame River, not for a gorram second, but she does blame the Cap'n, way deep in her gut. She knows what it cost him, she knows how he must be dyin' inside, b