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Thursday, 22 March 2007 07:23:34
*ahem* To those who didn't understand, or thought I was just grabbing attention, or whatever else: My last blog was not about not being agreed with, but about being treated as though I was a petulant child who just needed some time to cool down and then my anger over something I consider very serious would go away. It does not go away when ignored, it gets worse. I don't know why it's so hard to understand that. Or why it's so hard to understand why I wouldn't want to be around when things were pissing me off that badly. Staying around when nothing gets resolved is only going to make me angrier. I have strong emotions. They don't float away on the breeze. Anyone has a problem with that, it's just too damn bad. Put me on your own personal ignore list. Whatever. But don't expect it to change. I talk about and from all my emotions on this board, even good ones. Usually, in fact, it's good ones. Sometimes it's not. Sometimes I have a bad ruttin' day, and I get hurt and angry just like everyone else, and I'm going to talk about it and I'm going to respond to it and I'm going to want to get away from the source of it when there is no resolution. AND I AM GOING TO LET PEOPLE KNOW WHY I AM LEAVING IF I MAKE THAT CHOICE. I consider that to be being considerate to the people here I have ties with. I don't want them wondering if I just vanish. I was not saying "Everyone gimme attention!" I was saying "I want to leave and I want everyone to know why, so they will not wonder about what happened to me." If I want everyone to give me attention, I will say so. I will jump up and down and wave my arms and say "Look at me!" Because I say what I mean. What I meant when I said I was pissed and nobody cared and that I was leaving was that I was pissed and felt like no one cared I was pissed and was therefore going to leave. For the sake of my sanity. No point in banging your head against a wall and remaining in a place that is pissing you off when nothing is going to get resolved. That is how I felt. If you do not want to know how I feel, don't read it. If you read it and don't like it, don't imply that I have no right to feel that way. Or if I do, that I have no right to express it just because it might be a negative emotion. If I actually say something that upsets you directly, I'm not going to question your right to be upset, and I would appreciate the same courtesy. In that vein, I do understand if I upset anyone, because I was an angry and grating presence and I apologize for that. To those who understood where I was coming from: Thank you. Thank you for your understanding and your kindness in the face of my anger. I really hope I don't get that angry again for a good long while, because it's not pleasant to feel that way. You shiny folk helped me through it, and I appreciate that. You're right, of course, that I shouldn't let anger at one person and irritation at a few others on top of it get in the way of my ties with everyone else. I was mad at pretty nearly everyone yesterday, because I was irritable. Moreso than I've ever been. So everything just grated my nerves and I was just feeling very done with all of it, which is how I could contemplate leaving at all. I'm going to work on that not happening again, but I can't do it all by myself, so I appreciate you being here for me; more than I can properly express. You mean a lot to me and you will always have me in your corner if you need me, just as you're in mine. So. I'm not leaving. But I'll not be going back to the water cooler and I don't know how many threads I'll be posting on in general; will depend on whether my interest is sparked. The bar and grill and picture threads are a pretty safe bet. League of Psychic Nutcases if I can ever catch another thread before it gets to 'ridiculous load-time length', and ditto that for the Forsaken. And then wherever I feel the urge to jump in and say something. There are topics I've weighed in on so many times that I get bored repeating myself when the same questions come up, but I'm sure that most of ya understand that. Oh, and I'm a
Thursday, 22 March 2007 13:47:48
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Thursday, 22 March 2007 15:26:39
The word won't mean a lot to most of you guys. Another medical name for it is chorea huntington. Seems that one of my family is affected.
Thursday, 22 March 2007 16:52:23
So lovely people, when last we discussed the A:censored:hole he had absconded with the brand new truck my mother had paid for and gone to live with the skank up the road. At that time we had 2 vehicles left. A 2002 Blazer that #1 drove to and from school and work and a 1989 Toyota Turbo that I drove. Well the Turbo is in need of some restoration and is to costly for me to maintain at the moment. It was decided that we would tighten the already tightened belt a bit more and buy #1 a GM since his fathers family can get discounts. His grandfather was glad to give him the certificate - until they found out that in the State of Alabama an 18 yr old is still a minor and can not be on the loan or title of a vehicle. This meant that the certificate would have to be given to me. Well they - the A:censored:hole and his equally sphincter like father decided that was not good enough, that I was just trying to steal their discount and refused to give it to us. So the man driving around in a $31000 truck paid for COMPLETELY by MY mother, refuses to let us have a certificate equal to about $1000 so that his son can have a car to drive. WHY? did I marry this man?