Notes: Takes place sometime between the pilot and Big Damn film.

Disclaimer: Characters mentioned are used without permission and are trademarks of Fox/Joss Wheadon. I do not own them and am simply borrowing for my purposes. Please don't sue.

I know what people think. Crazy girl. Dangerous. A weapon. A killer. I know what they think and it scares them. I scare them. Who I am. What I am.

I scare them because I know. Know too much. Their fault, though. They made me. Broke me down, took me apart. Just to see if they could. They ruined me.

Not a girl. Not sane. Not human. Not right.

Not anymore.

But sometimes I can pretend. Playing with Kaylee. Reading with Book. Being with Simon. Sometimes I can forget. Feel like a whole being again.

Sometimes it's almost okay. Almost.