GODDESSWARRIOR89'S BLOG
I should be happy but I'm not
Sunday, September 9, 2007 12:36 AM
Today was great, lined up at the gate around noon and they let us into the stadium at 2. The game kicked off at 3 30 and we were up I think 28 - 0 by the end of the first quarter. We won the game vs Lenoir Rhyne 48-7 and it was cool. I got a little sunburned and I'm exhausted but it was an alright day...So why the hell do I feel so upset?
I can't stop thinking about my friend Liz... Liz passed away in February of this year and she was my director at the community theater. We were extremely close and I know more than anything she wanted me to pursue my dream of becoming an actress. I can't help to worry about my future and worry that somehow my dream won't come true and it makes me feel like I'm letting Liz down...
My life has not been great so far, I'm eighteen and I'm just waiting for that day when everything clicks and for once things go my way. I want to act more than anything and for once this is something that I want to make me happy, not to please my parents or anyone else. I want to live my life for me but I'm so scared of letting everyone who loves me down...
I need a BDH right now to save me
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