My Head Feels Like It's Going To Explode

Monday, May 21, 2007 12:36 PM

I can't do this. I give up. It's official.

Throughout the last month, it's been dawning on me occasionally that I have alot on, in a short space of time, but I've made plans (ok, I've thought of plans, I didn't actually write anything down) to try and handle it all. I've felt ok-ish about it, you know? The temptation to hit my head against a wall until I knock myself out has been less than in previous times of stress.

But last night, the reality of it all just hit me like a wrench to the head. My exams start in 4 days, and I haven't done any reading or revision for any of them. Even the open book exam is looking impossible, because the textbook for the module is bloody useless!!

I'm getting increasingly worried about the CSTS screening I'm organising. I keep coming up with lists of new things to do all the time - I think I'm on top of it all, and then BAM! Something else is thrown at me. I'm not regretting my decision to organise it at all but I wish the timing could have worked out a bit better.

Also, my funds are running looooow. I seriously need to find another part-time job for the summer, but it's so hard when people never get back to you! I can bust my butt sending out 20 CVs and I'll be lucky if I get 2 replies. It SUCKS. I still have my current job at the chemist but I've been wanting to try something different alongside that for a long time now, and I missed out on getting a new job last summer, so if it happens again, I will cry. But looking for a new job is just another stress to add to the pile I'm buried under.

I'm just going to go crawl in my bed, and stay there for a month, ok? Call me if anything interesting comes up...

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