Just Ranting

Friday, April 7, 2006 2:17 PM

I've been reading posts on this site for months now and every now and then I post a few myself, but this is my first log. Hi to everyone out there meeting me for the first time. I'm glad to know you, because I've noticed that we browncoats are overall good people. And I mean it, every single browncoat I've met has been a decent person. It's hard to find these days, kind of makes us special.

I'm just going to starting ranting now (if I haven't already). I've needed a place to rant for a while now so I finally decided to just do it here. I'm just going to start with the most relevent and recent problem I've been struggling with as of late. I've reached a point where I'm halfway through college, I have an idea of what I want to do when I get out and an idea of what my ideal job would be, but what troubles me is that I still have yet to define me. I can't put my finger on it. Who am I really? What is it about me that makes me different from everyone else. I go to a school where I'm surrounded by exceptional people, and at times it makes me feel inadequate. Kind of makes you think "How did I get in here when there are so many better than me?"

Sometimes I feel like I just don't have a place where I belong. My roommates have their religions (one a beginner Budhist and ones a near fanatical Christian), but I'm not big on organized religion. So when they leave to go to their thing or visit their girlfriends, kind of leaves me all alone on my own raggedy edge.

I guess what I'm looking for is something to be part of, and I guess that's one reason I enjoy being a browncoat so much. Yet I still feel lost and alone sometimes. But I'm working on it. Thanks for listening to the rant.

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