Friends (not the tv show)

Saturday, July 30, 2005 10:11 AM

Ok so i never really posted in my blog at all, ever... so im going to now

to clear the jumbled thoughts in my head

Im very loyal to my friends, I care a great deal about them, and would protect them at any cost.

like everyone ive met my share of bad eggs, not least Linda (whos story may be spraffed at a later date) even so, my experience with her didnt shatter existing loyalty to other friends. Im of course more carful about who I give my time too, and my browncoat family are most certainly a group of people id do anything for at any time in any way.
I also have another group of friends who are not browncoats and just 'humour me' with my fandom.
Recently (yesterday) I felt very let down by one of these people, and its all quite silly i think, but it breaks down to loyalty. I post infrequently on her message boards, due to a group of 'Heathers' (if youve seen the film you get me) making it as hard for me as possible because im a punk and not a trendy pop music loving babycham drinking scary girl. in other words im not what they call normal. (and dont get me wrong, these women are adults, not kids) so I asked this friend to remove me from her boards, as I was uber uncomfortable, and although unlike me, I felt it was best. She refused saying she wanted me to help mod these boards now they were getting bigger by the day (if you know me, its a support board for chloes illness) so me being one to always help out said ok, I log on yesterday morning to find the heathers spraffing about being made mods, and no sign of me. now im not bothered about that, im bothered that my friend said what she did, what was the purpose of it, to make me feel even more crap.....

I seem to set myself up for being walked on.
Should i become more selfish, stop caring so much, to avoid being hurt again and again.

End of random and pointless blog

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