Musings on Life Part 1

Sunday, June 5, 2005 12:57 AM

Ok, so I’ve never done a blog before, per se. Not normally one to share what I think or feel very much, it tends to bite me in the nether regions something fierce, shall we say. I have toyed with the idea for a bit, so I’ve decided to give it a go (at least it will give me something to do during work hours (lol)

A quick introduction might be warranted, so as to give this some semblance of logic. First off, I am typing this in Word, so I have no idea how this is going to turn out…

The common joke would be: I was born when Carter was president, and I’ve been recovering ever since. (Weak joke there, but hey.) I grew up as lower-middle class, as it were; never really hurting for anything, but not enjoying the frills that other kids of that time enjoyed, shiny bikes, Nintendo’s, etc etc. My parents had divorced when I was two, and my mother remarried when I was four, my real-dad the same year I believe. This part of my life is rather gray. Not for the reasons that most would think (I am cursed with total recall, and near photographic memory), it was rather that my feelings on such things hadn’t quite formed into what they are now. I do distinctly recall that I had little tolerance for this new bloke that ran the show, and missed sitting in my mom’s lap watching scary movies (poltergeist especially) late at night. Think I wanted that back until maybe 8 years had passed.

Being a rather “simple” man, not stupid mind you, but just simple, having a son with a next-gen computer for a brain is rather intimidating, I would say. Many, many times would I be harassed for using “Big Words: to confound him (like say…pelvis), or discussing certain bits of science or math. Like ideas about how things worked, and what could I actually figure out (a habit that I still enjoy to some extent). Made things a bit rough, so needless to say, I was relatively grounded until my height and weight caught up with me and I had a more “manly frame” (Being short and rather skinny most of my life). Still a bit lean of build, but the height became 6’ at some point.

So, growing up, I learned how to conceal a lot of what I truly thought or knew (know when to hold them, know when to fold them…it’s the walking away that’s difficult at times o:O). Needless to say, that provided NO shortage of difficulties in the cutthroat world of the American school system. Outsider, reject, weirdo, freak, nerd, geek…. you name it, I’ve been called it. A few friends here and there ; no popularity for me, just the kind of friends that you give you a wistful longing for later in life. My recompense was that I had the brains in my little finger what most of the harassers had in their entire body, which with my sarcasm, left me in trouble more times than not. Bullies typically don’t like to be reminded that they are rude, boorish, stupid, or otherwise lacking in certain…features, shall we say? Which, of course combined with Sunday morning Kung Fu matinee on TV left me with a fascination for all things martial (most martial arts, swordplay, etc). The last bully that attempted to establish his superiority got jump kicked…lol. Oh…and try being confined to a pair of glasses on top of all that (20-15 vision does NOT make one popular!)

Unsurprisingly, most of this left me with, or as a result of (Which came first, the chicken or the egg) a healthy does of AHDH (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, for those that don’t know), a highly INACCURATE term. A pet peeve of mine is what it actually is, how it is explained to people that don’t know what it is, and the millions of claims to have it. As a kid, it was very rare for a diagnosis of ADHD, let alone so many people walking around saying they have it to get some sympathy, or an excuse to drug up their kids (my cousin for instance was on Ritalin for years, but shares not a one of the symptoms of ADD or ADHD).

So, let’s break it down: Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. Submitted for your approval as it were…there’s no such thing as a Deficit with it, more like a

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